I call Jasper after hours shoveling and say "our fathers were sonsofbitches but I'm not unhappy with the man I am."
Cups of coffee, eggs over easy, sausage with too much red pepper kneaded in and steak fries cooked just shy of burnt, just the way I like them.
Soft padding of cats moving through the living room while I pray.
What is falling if not snow.
What is this globe in which to find ourselves so lonely and alone, snow falling.
Definition as function.
And yet, in the end, it is not easy to be kind at all.
The man without shoes is also the man who is out of time. How did I miss this?
Letters to old lovers shredded in Heaven and allowed to sift downward through gray skies, quiet and soft, as if what went wrong were somehow not wrong at all.
Are lies a form of disguise? Why haven't I thought of this before? What else is out there for me to learn?
Oh, little by little and then some.
He laughs and says they were and you are and me too and then we talk about sons and daughters and Ron's plan to open a microbrewery when the pandemic finally ends.
Waking to an alarm at 5 a.m., odd dreams of lawyers and state cops, probably concocted by late night reading of pleadings in the federal antitrust case against Google which left me oddly happy, hopeful.
Frost flowers on the east-facing window. Chrisoula passing through the bedroom sweeping, the floor in need of it but more than that, her psyche in need of the healing sweeping offers her, and I don't speak, in order that love might be love, mercy mercy, and what is holy, holy.