When you still think you need to be forgiven.
When you have nothing.
Unbottled. Blue lights in which our breathing softens until it nearly stops, letting us feel again the loveliness of what we are in Truth.
Not this. Not this.
Love washing over us, wave upon beautiful wave, until even the idea of sin dissolves and is gone forever.
Her drive with her family to a place I am which I bless happily in prayerful huddle with Jesus who makes me smile, makes me laugh, makes me so happy I bless everyone without thinking, even Kent who I hate because he knows her in the many ways I cannot and never will.
Properly understood, dialogue has neither an end nor a beginning nor a middle.
Lost in a bologna sandwich of my own making.
The way you say anything matters more than what you say.
Last of the whiskey blackouts, last time stumbling in darkness up a rushing river, last time thinking about guns and ends and who saves who and how.
Last time muttering the Luciferian prayer.
My heart, that twice-concussed and born again hummingbird. Seeing her mother in how she holds the saxophone and brings forth the art, and grateful beyond measure in ways that cannot be expressed.
What is beyond repair, what is beyond caring, and what is beyond what is beyond what is given me to share with you.
Raising the dead with her, praying in back alleys with her, feeding the poor with her.
Other in her, undone in her.